happy 2 YEARS!!!!!

two years today!

....today i celebrate two years.....WOW    i can not believe it...... okay, i know, i'm still a newbie compared to those veterans... i also know i've only been maintaining six months....   yet, if you would have told me two years ago when i walked into that hospital wearing a size 36W pants and 5XL top that today i'd head into the hospital wearing a size 6Misses jeans (and skinny jeans, at that) and a medium top, i would have asked if you were smoking something.....  how did that happen?.... where did that 238 lbs go?..... can i say they'll NEVER return?.... NO, i'm not stupid..... i pray it doesn't.... i do whatever i can to NOT let it happen..... yet, please know, i lost 104 lbs before without WLS, and maintained 5 years, then REGAINED.... so, until i get past 5 years of maintaince, i'll be holding my breath.    not literally of course... figuratively.  

.....i am experiencing hunger now.... SHE RETURNED, darn it all.... but grehlin begone(i wish).... but i used my first 18 months to become a rule follower, and i'm a dumper (thank the good LORD), so i always have THAT to contend with and to keep me honest.... but i have had some cravings.... i will admit, i did put a couple of dark chocolate raisins in my mouth, and they were good!  NO, THEY WERE GREAT!!!!  but, as soon as they're gone (and with the meanager here, give them one sitting) they won't come back into MY house... too much of a temptation. 

.....i'm not going to tell you exactly how to eat, or what i eat.... that can be really BORING.   but realize, i do follow the rules.... my program gave us a booklet on food plans, water consumption, vitamins, supplements.... it's DOGEARED.... i LIVED and BREATHED it, i KNOW it, inside and out..... it saved my life..... and i know how to reach out to people on their blogs, facebook, and youtube for help if i'm astray.... thank YOU for being part of my recovery from obesity.....

.....i'm so grateful that my co-morbidities are gone.... no more apnea....no more asthma....no more allergies (yes, you heard me), no more elevated HbgA1C, no more peeing my pants when i sneeze/cough, no more precancerous state in my unterus, no more reflux...no more depression.....need i go on?   thanks that i can sit in ANY CHAIR ANYWHERE and not worry that it will break... thanks that i can get my bilateral knee replacements and move forward in my life.... thanks that i can throw away all those "large lady" clothes catalogs that i bought my clothes from for 13 years..... WAHOOT! life is good... life is great....  perfect?  no.... but who needs perfect when you have your health, family, friends, WLS friends, and can rejoice in LIFE!!!! 

.....to peace, health, and happinesss......

godspeed,

xxoo~nicole