negativity

jealousy, sabbotage, talking behind ones back, “you’re too skinny”, “you’re starving yourself”….


ok, so a certain someone began this topic on facebook. (and thanks for that). i must say that yes, i encountered it all. i am usually positive. i usually don’t center in on the negative. i can’t afford to. so when I encountered this in my post bariatric surgery life, i was shocked. i was scared. i was mortified. i RAN. but thank god i didn’t respond like i used to with food. some tootsie rolls®, starbursts®, pretzels, doritoes®. i had a great best friend, i had a great support group, i had my youtube, FB WLS support! i have to tell you, i also did the ‘ol school of practice, as if there was an infection that couldn’t be healed, i amputated the limb. well, not actually, i have all my arms and legs. i cut those people out of my life. or minimally, i put up a nice brick wall to protect myself. now, don’t get me wrong, i didn’t make such a barrier that NOONE comes in, but i’m selective. i can love you, but i don’t have to like you. i can forgive you, i don’t have to condone your behavior. i just began working in an amazing book by Louise L. Hay, “love yourself, heal your life workbook”. i did it for lent (yeah, i’m catholic), call it my SPRING CLEANING. Louise has some pretty cool outlooks on life. i think i like her. i’m doing my “mirror work”. i’m learning to love me. post bariatric me. the child in me. the hurt me. the me that allowed those mean spirited people to hurt me with their jealousy, sabbotage, talking behind my back, saying mean things people… it’s okay. Wm. Scott Peck said it before, i agree with him, “i’m okay, you’re okay”. << another great book, by the way. meanwhile, i’ll eat some more cottage cheese and SF(sugar-free) homemade whole grain banana/apple bread. yeah! xxoo~nicole


p.s. that recipe….
oven to 350 degrees, one loaf pan, cooking spray
1 ½ cups whole wheat flour
1 teas baking soda
1 tablespoon cinnamon
1 teas nutmeg
Mix together, put aside.
2 eggs (i like large brown free range, just sayin’)
1 stick salted butter
½ cup sour cream (lowfat, or use greek yogurt)
½ mashed banana, ripe
1 cup diced apple
1 teas vanilla
Mix wet ingredients together, add dry into it. Batter is thick. Bread is dense. Bake one hour. i began eating this at 18 months post op. one slice a day, takes me all week to eat it.
MUST REFRIGERATE!!!!